Since I last wrote, I had an amazing trip to see Sarah and her husband. I had forgotten how much I loved just talking to her. I've missed that a lot since she left, but it was really nice to get to catch up and spend a week out there. I can't wait to go back.
But after that, things kind of fell apart. School and work turned into things I dreaded.
Starting with school, I have been killing myself studying for accounting since our first test. I got a 64 on the first test, with not so much studying. I studied at least 14 hours for our next test. I walked out thinking I had done really well. When he gave them back on Thursday, I was proved wrong. Really wrong. I had gotten a 51 before the gracious 3 point curve. The best score was a 93, and two people got that. What pissed me off even more than him making a big deal about giving us a 3 point curve, was that when we were going over the test, he had those who had done well write the problems the rest of us had trouble with on the board. I'm sorry, but it's not the student's jobs to show us how to do these problems. They don't get paid for that. This is the worst professor I have ever had. He reads us the powerpoints and does no examples. We're teaching ourselves, and I hate that. As an accounting major, I have to get a C or better in this class to move on to Intermediate Accounting 2. After getting a 64 and 51 on the two tests, I decided that it was all but impossible for me to get that grade. Barring some kind of miracle or an act of God, I will not be making a C in this class. I made the decision to change my major to General Business. I need 2 less classes for that degree than I needed for accounting, so I will only have to take 12 credit hours the next 3 semesters until I graduate. The kind of degree doesn't matter; I just want the degree. I have no idea what I want to do after college anyway, so we'll see. Needless to say, I will be ripping my professor a new ass hole when we do evaluations.
As far as work goes, Keshia left about a month or so ago. We all knew she would eventually because she wasn't happy and she never got to see her daughter. She moved to days over at the internal medicine clinic. They finally hired her replacement. It was an outside hire, so she knows nothing. I had to train her in scheduling last week, and needless to say, it was awkward. She seems nice enough, but no one can ever replace Keshia. She's not doing the group leader job yet since she's still trying to learn everything, but I'm still not sure how this is going to work out. The heifers on the other shift still won't work for me when I need them to. I stopped saying yes everytime they try to get me to work, so I'm standing up for myself. I also had to work by myself for 2 days the other week because Jennifer broke her ankle. I wasn't a happy camper.
According to my Facebook news feed last night, Scott got engaged. I didn't even know he was seeing anyone. I hate that he was still texting me as of a couple weeks ago, but never mentioned a thing. I'm not sure I'm ok with this. The more I think about it, the more it bothers me. Ciara told me it would be easier on me to delete him from my friends list, but it's definitely easier said than done. I'd like to say he doesn't mean anything to me, but that would be a lie. There is way too much history, even if it's not as recent as it once was. I've moved on enough to where I'm fine with other guys now, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. Part of me wants to get some guy to throw in his face, juvenile as that may be. Seeing this on my news feed last night just killed me. I tossed and turned all night and have been going over it in my head all day. The bitchy side of me hopes she's ugly and as emotionally inept as he is. The latter must be true if she's agreed to marry him.
Throwing that on top of a crappy past couple weeks, it's just been rough going around here. Plus side, the Predators game was pretty awesome last night. At least that part of life seems to be going right.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Blogging instead of packing
I am so excited to be going to Arizona tomorrow. Tennessee has slowly been driving me crazy. And I have missed having Sarah here to help keep me sane. It's going to be so much fun to get to catch up and hang out for a few days. We don't have any big plans, aside from going to Phoenix for the hockey game, and I like it that way. I'm perfectly content with just sitting around and spending time with them out there. It sucks that in the past two years, I've had two of my best friends move away. But it's good that they're doing awesome things with their lives. After school is over, maybe I'll get to leave too.
As hard as school has been this semester, I keep telling myself that after this one, there are only 3 semesters left till I graduate. I have to stick it out because there is no other option. I will get that diploma. These classes and work loads are much more intense, and I just have to learn to adjust. It's a learning process, and I'm taking it as I go. Doing the best I can, and figuring out that's all I can do. Trying not to worry about things too much.
I've got so much to do tonight and tomorrow before I leave, but I love to procrastinate. I am so nervous about flying, but I'm a big girl now. And I can't wait for some stress free vacation.
As hard as school has been this semester, I keep telling myself that after this one, there are only 3 semesters left till I graduate. I have to stick it out because there is no other option. I will get that diploma. These classes and work loads are much more intense, and I just have to learn to adjust. It's a learning process, and I'm taking it as I go. Doing the best I can, and figuring out that's all I can do. Trying not to worry about things too much.
I've got so much to do tonight and tomorrow before I leave, but I love to procrastinate. I am so nervous about flying, but I'm a big girl now. And I can't wait for some stress free vacation.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
I'm a slave to the cinema
I am turning into a movie junkie. I love going to the movies. I love renting movies. I just love them period. In the past two days, I saw three movies in theater. Friday, Kaily and I went to see The Goods: Live Hard Sell Hard. I got exactly what I wanted from it: dirty jokes and lots of laughs. Then yesterday Jenn, Kelly, and I saw Harry Potter in IMAX and then Inglourious Basterds. We had all already seen HP6, but Jenn and I had free passes, and I wasn't passing up that opportunity. Cried like a little baby again. I couldn't help it. The second film of our double feature rocked my socks! I used to be real in to gore and horror movies, but as I've grown up, I lost my taste for them. This movie threw me right back in to it. Quentin Tarantino is a genius. I didn't think it could get better than Kill Bill, which I loved, but Inglourious Basterds was awesome! It had the right mix of bad accents, cruel jokes, gore, and messed up plot. I don't have the weak stomach I used to when it comes to blood and guts. Kelly and Jenn had to look away at parts, but I was just in awe. It's definitely not a movie for someone who hates violence or has a weak stomach. But if you can handle a few moments of some pretty gross stuff, it's an excellent movie. Plus it has Eli Roth! How awesome is that? I'm excited for it to come out on DVD just so I can watch all the special feature stuff.
It was a WWII kind of week I guess. I had gotten Valkyrie from redbox earlier this week, which was also awesome. That was always my favorite stuff in history. Guess I'm just fascinated by the time period and all the things that went on. So naturally, movies based around that time always catch my eye.
To make a long story short, seen a bunch of good movies lately. And Inglourious Basterds is worth the watch.
It was a WWII kind of week I guess. I had gotten Valkyrie from redbox earlier this week, which was also awesome. That was always my favorite stuff in history. Guess I'm just fascinated by the time period and all the things that went on. So naturally, movies based around that time always catch my eye.
To make a long story short, seen a bunch of good movies lately. And Inglourious Basterds is worth the watch.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Just another Tuesday....
Since I have a few days off work, I have time to blog!
I worked for Ashley last night, and Keshia pulled me aside. She told me not to tell anyone, but I'm the only one getting a raise. All I can say is, Finally! I haven't had a raise since three months after I started, and I've been there for over three years. Every other person who worked in scheduling and front desk have gone. I've been on that shift the longest. I think the raise is well deserved, especially with all the BS I've been putting up with in the past few months. Keshia didn't say anything about her leaving, but she said she did apply for a job in imaging. She'd still be in the same building, but in the back. It would suck if she left, but I can honestly say I wouldn't blame her.
Kaily up and decided to drive to Wisconsin Sunday night. I'm jealous because I wanted to go, but had to work on Monday. She's only going to be there until Wednesday, but it would have been nice to get away for a couple days before school starts on Monday. It wasn't a good decision for her financially, but she;s never been good at managing her money. One day she'll learn, when she's on her own. It wouldn't have been wise for me to spend the money to go either, but sometimes you just need to get away.
Getting away is exactly the reason I took this week, minus Monday off from APSU. Everyone there was driving me crazy with the blaming, micromanaging, and constant BS. I'm sure Della wasn't happy, but it's not my fault she put stuff off that needs to be done this week. I feel bad for leaving Jackie and Colton, but it's just a few days, and Jackie won't be there Wednesday and Thursday because of training for the paper. Basically all this means is that Della will actually have to do work this week and won't be able to blame things on us lowly student workers. I know this all sounds very bitter considering she did give me a thank you card and a Sonic gift card, but it took all summer for any sort of acknowledgement. I don't need her to bow down and thank me every day, but I wish she didn't blow up the little things and ignore all the big things I've gone out of my way to do this summer. She will be lost without me after this spring. I love most of the other student workers and a few of the staff members, but I will be glad when my time there is over.
I think Scott and I are turning back into friends. We've been checking up on each other and being cordial. It's nice. This is what I missed about our high school days. After the first year or so, things got rough and the dynamic changed. It took us awhile to get back to this point, and honestly I wasn't sure we'd ever make it back, but I am really glad we're being like this. All along I thought I was missing someone I loved, in a romantic way, but I'm realizing that what I've really missed is his friendship. As far as people I keep in touch with, he's the friend I've had the longest. He may not know me as well anymore, but there's still a connection. I think I might always love him, but it's turning back into that friend love. And I am perfectly fine with that.
I went to the doctor last week. Basically had the beginnings of a sinus infection and possibly allergies. He also told me I need to watch my blood pressure because I might have hypertension. I was a little pissed because he didn't tell me what it was or what I could do to help my blood pressure. I scared myself by Googling "hypertension." Apparently, it can cause heart attacks and all kinds of scary stuff. That's the last thing I need to have on my plate. From what I read, I need to lower my sodium intake and exercise more. I've been working on the exercise thing because I want to look halfway decent when we go to Destin for Chastity's wedding in May. I'm just worried because my family has all kinds of health problems, so I'm not exactly starting with the best genes in the world.
In less than a week, I'll be back in class. I have four on campus, and then one online. Not sure how I feel about this online class, but they weren't even offering it on campus. Guess it'll be a new challenge. If I bought all my books in the bookstore, they were going to cost over $600. I about choked. It kills me to spend that much on anything, let alone books. I bought a couple online for pretty cheap, but several of them are brand new. So there will be no used books to choose from. Really wishing that scholarship money would come through so I can get them. I hate waiting until after classes have started, but that's the only choice. Hoping that the semester goes by fast. Counting this one, I have four semesters left in school. Two years sounds too long, so I think of it in terms of semesters. Thinking about it that way is kinda scary. I'm just not sure about jumping into the real world. I am an adult now, but that thought still scares me sometimes. Hopefully by graduation, I will have a better grasp on things.
That's about all that's going on here lately. Really going to try to keep up better with this and my other blog. It's a nice place for streams of thoughts. Better than babbling incoherently I suppose.
I worked for Ashley last night, and Keshia pulled me aside. She told me not to tell anyone, but I'm the only one getting a raise. All I can say is, Finally! I haven't had a raise since three months after I started, and I've been there for over three years. Every other person who worked in scheduling and front desk have gone. I've been on that shift the longest. I think the raise is well deserved, especially with all the BS I've been putting up with in the past few months. Keshia didn't say anything about her leaving, but she said she did apply for a job in imaging. She'd still be in the same building, but in the back. It would suck if she left, but I can honestly say I wouldn't blame her.
Kaily up and decided to drive to Wisconsin Sunday night. I'm jealous because I wanted to go, but had to work on Monday. She's only going to be there until Wednesday, but it would have been nice to get away for a couple days before school starts on Monday. It wasn't a good decision for her financially, but she;s never been good at managing her money. One day she'll learn, when she's on her own. It wouldn't have been wise for me to spend the money to go either, but sometimes you just need to get away.
Getting away is exactly the reason I took this week, minus Monday off from APSU. Everyone there was driving me crazy with the blaming, micromanaging, and constant BS. I'm sure Della wasn't happy, but it's not my fault she put stuff off that needs to be done this week. I feel bad for leaving Jackie and Colton, but it's just a few days, and Jackie won't be there Wednesday and Thursday because of training for the paper. Basically all this means is that Della will actually have to do work this week and won't be able to blame things on us lowly student workers. I know this all sounds very bitter considering she did give me a thank you card and a Sonic gift card, but it took all summer for any sort of acknowledgement. I don't need her to bow down and thank me every day, but I wish she didn't blow up the little things and ignore all the big things I've gone out of my way to do this summer. She will be lost without me after this spring. I love most of the other student workers and a few of the staff members, but I will be glad when my time there is over.
I think Scott and I are turning back into friends. We've been checking up on each other and being cordial. It's nice. This is what I missed about our high school days. After the first year or so, things got rough and the dynamic changed. It took us awhile to get back to this point, and honestly I wasn't sure we'd ever make it back, but I am really glad we're being like this. All along I thought I was missing someone I loved, in a romantic way, but I'm realizing that what I've really missed is his friendship. As far as people I keep in touch with, he's the friend I've had the longest. He may not know me as well anymore, but there's still a connection. I think I might always love him, but it's turning back into that friend love. And I am perfectly fine with that.
I went to the doctor last week. Basically had the beginnings of a sinus infection and possibly allergies. He also told me I need to watch my blood pressure because I might have hypertension. I was a little pissed because he didn't tell me what it was or what I could do to help my blood pressure. I scared myself by Googling "hypertension." Apparently, it can cause heart attacks and all kinds of scary stuff. That's the last thing I need to have on my plate. From what I read, I need to lower my sodium intake and exercise more. I've been working on the exercise thing because I want to look halfway decent when we go to Destin for Chastity's wedding in May. I'm just worried because my family has all kinds of health problems, so I'm not exactly starting with the best genes in the world.
In less than a week, I'll be back in class. I have four on campus, and then one online. Not sure how I feel about this online class, but they weren't even offering it on campus. Guess it'll be a new challenge. If I bought all my books in the bookstore, they were going to cost over $600. I about choked. It kills me to spend that much on anything, let alone books. I bought a couple online for pretty cheap, but several of them are brand new. So there will be no used books to choose from. Really wishing that scholarship money would come through so I can get them. I hate waiting until after classes have started, but that's the only choice. Hoping that the semester goes by fast. Counting this one, I have four semesters left in school. Two years sounds too long, so I think of it in terms of semesters. Thinking about it that way is kinda scary. I'm just not sure about jumping into the real world. I am an adult now, but that thought still scares me sometimes. Hopefully by graduation, I will have a better grasp on things.
That's about all that's going on here lately. Really going to try to keep up better with this and my other blog. It's a nice place for streams of thoughts. Better than babbling incoherently I suppose.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Job craziness
I'm not one to complain about work often. I'm of the belief that if you don't like your work situation, do something to change it. If you hate your job, get a new one. However, this past week really pushed me to the edge with both jobs. We'll start with Premier.
Last Thursday, the day before my shift started, Ashley texted me and told me I might be switching shifts because she couldn't deal with Heather anymore. Naturally, I was more than a little upset. I have planned several things around the weeks I have off. Changing shifts would have required me to take a lot of time off. I went into work on Friday and confronted Keshia about it. She immediately told me it wasn't happening. I am so thankful for that. It wouldn't be fair for Ashley to complain about dealing with Heather and have everything change just because of that. Part of being an adult is dealing with difficult people. If you can't, then quit. The rest of the week went by rather smoothly, until Thursday. I got every idiot patient on the phone, and I felt horrible to being with. On top of that, as much as I love Jennifer, she spends a ton of time on her phone. She always talks to Scott at least once while we're there. I'm thinking, "We work for two and half hours. Is it really going to kill you to wait until you get home to discuss how each other's days were?" Nothing is going to change that. And come February she'll be out with the baby. When she comes back, I can only imagine it will be worse. To make matters worse, Keshia told us she was probably putting in her two weeks notice. I'm not sure if she did, but I know she's wanted to for a while now. Whoever they get to replace her will not be as cool, that's for sure. I can guarantee Joy won't be back because she hated that job. The whole place is a big mess right now. This is what happens when a bunch of women work together. They need some men, besides the doctors, to calm the drama central that has become Premier Medical Group.
Switching gears the other place of employment, the APSU Admissions office has been a suck fest all summer. It's not as carefree as it was last summer. We get in trouble for everything, blamed for everything, and do everything. Della has royally screwed up a lot of things this summer, and I'm pretty sure she's gotten in trouble for them, so maybe it's getting taken out on us. We get more done than anyone in the office, yet if we have a conversation with each other and stop working for only a minute, they get on to us. We've been yelled at for cell phones, being on the internet, and talking. Apparently Jackie and I are supposed to keep Colton and Casey on top of their tasks. I'm sorry, but I'm not the supervisor. It's not my job to tell them what to do. There is no reason to put that responsibility on me. If you want Colton to do more work, tell him not me and Jackie. We've all been talking about how ridiculous the office has been this summer. It's not only me who sees the crap that's been going on. I'm tired of working my butt off to get in trouble for the little things. I'm also tired of being given projects to do, only to be interrupted while doing them. How am I supposed to get anything done if you keep throwing other things my way? Don't get mad that things are behind when you sit on the internet and phone practically all day. Della was griping yesterday that she was actually having to do work because Ryan had me and Jackie working on something. God forbid you lift a finger! I'm tired of being the only one, or ones because Jackie does help out a lot, doing things and then getting in trouble. I've all but made up my mind that I will not be working next summer, nor will I be trying to work study next year when my scholarship is up. I'm not going to willingly stay in that office any longer. We've broken our backs all summer without so much as a thank you. So, I don't want to hear them complain at all that I'm taking this Tuesday-Friday off. Without a break in the crazy, I might just go over the edge.
Is it bad that classes starting will provide a break from the craziness and stress?
Last Thursday, the day before my shift started, Ashley texted me and told me I might be switching shifts because she couldn't deal with Heather anymore. Naturally, I was more than a little upset. I have planned several things around the weeks I have off. Changing shifts would have required me to take a lot of time off. I went into work on Friday and confronted Keshia about it. She immediately told me it wasn't happening. I am so thankful for that. It wouldn't be fair for Ashley to complain about dealing with Heather and have everything change just because of that. Part of being an adult is dealing with difficult people. If you can't, then quit. The rest of the week went by rather smoothly, until Thursday. I got every idiot patient on the phone, and I felt horrible to being with. On top of that, as much as I love Jennifer, she spends a ton of time on her phone. She always talks to Scott at least once while we're there. I'm thinking, "We work for two and half hours. Is it really going to kill you to wait until you get home to discuss how each other's days were?" Nothing is going to change that. And come February she'll be out with the baby. When she comes back, I can only imagine it will be worse. To make matters worse, Keshia told us she was probably putting in her two weeks notice. I'm not sure if she did, but I know she's wanted to for a while now. Whoever they get to replace her will not be as cool, that's for sure. I can guarantee Joy won't be back because she hated that job. The whole place is a big mess right now. This is what happens when a bunch of women work together. They need some men, besides the doctors, to calm the drama central that has become Premier Medical Group.
Switching gears the other place of employment, the APSU Admissions office has been a suck fest all summer. It's not as carefree as it was last summer. We get in trouble for everything, blamed for everything, and do everything. Della has royally screwed up a lot of things this summer, and I'm pretty sure she's gotten in trouble for them, so maybe it's getting taken out on us. We get more done than anyone in the office, yet if we have a conversation with each other and stop working for only a minute, they get on to us. We've been yelled at for cell phones, being on the internet, and talking. Apparently Jackie and I are supposed to keep Colton and Casey on top of their tasks. I'm sorry, but I'm not the supervisor. It's not my job to tell them what to do. There is no reason to put that responsibility on me. If you want Colton to do more work, tell him not me and Jackie. We've all been talking about how ridiculous the office has been this summer. It's not only me who sees the crap that's been going on. I'm tired of working my butt off to get in trouble for the little things. I'm also tired of being given projects to do, only to be interrupted while doing them. How am I supposed to get anything done if you keep throwing other things my way? Don't get mad that things are behind when you sit on the internet and phone practically all day. Della was griping yesterday that she was actually having to do work because Ryan had me and Jackie working on something. God forbid you lift a finger! I'm tired of being the only one, or ones because Jackie does help out a lot, doing things and then getting in trouble. I've all but made up my mind that I will not be working next summer, nor will I be trying to work study next year when my scholarship is up. I'm not going to willingly stay in that office any longer. We've broken our backs all summer without so much as a thank you. So, I don't want to hear them complain at all that I'm taking this Tuesday-Friday off. Without a break in the crazy, I might just go over the edge.
Is it bad that classes starting will provide a break from the craziness and stress?
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
It's no surprise...
..that Daughtry was awesome. Jenn and I spent an amount that we agreed to never mention again on VIP tickets for the Daughtry show last Tuesday. We were supposed to be there at 4 to watch soundcheck and do the meet & greet. We got there at 4, and then stood in line until 5:30. It was an hour and a half before we got our VIP passes. Get this, they let us in to get those, and then we got back in line outside, in the rain. It was sprinkling for a large part of the time we spent standing in line. They let us in for soundcheck and the meet & greet. Jenn and I stood in the back; not trying to get pushed around with all the cougars that were there. Thanks to this, we ended up near the front of the line when we had to go back outside. The meet & greet was pretty awesome. I got hugs from 3 of the guys, Chris included. He also told me that he had been reading my Twitter earlier. How cool is that? I tried to use that to my advantage, tweeting later asking him to play "Learn My Lesson," but it didn't work. Jenn and I had our picture made together, so they let us take two. The second one, we all did something goofy, except Jenn cuz she hadn't heard. Both pictures turned out awesome and are on my Facebook. Then we got back in line outside. When they finally let us in for the show, we were right up front. There were two people between me and the stage. It took forever for the opening act to come out, and when he finally did, I wasn't impressed. By that time we were all hot and miserable. A girl had passed out, and the security guard had lifted her over the metal bar like it was nothing. She came back later and was fine, but it was a little scary. After that, they started handing out water. Daughtry finally came on around 9pm. At that point Jenn and I had been on our feet for five hours. The pain all but went away when they started playing. I didn't care about my feet anymore. I was just so excited to be that close to the stage. They played pretty much every song I love, with the exception of "Learn My Lesson" and "Used To". Can't say I was disappointed at all. I tweeted the set list, and I'll put it below for anyone who cares. Even Chris appreciated how hot it was in there. He kept spraying the crowd with water, which felt amazing. I've never been so hot in my life, but it was totally worth it. The cougars in that place were crazy. In true 'Kelsey and Jenn' style, we mocked them and laughed hysterically. All said and done, it was a great night, and I'm so glad we did it. Would never go see them or anyone in a venue like that again, but it was fun. Hopefully the next time they come to Nashville, we'll get to see them at a venue with seats! After about 7 hours straight on my feet, I have never been so happy to see my bed.
Daughtry Set List 09 as captured on Twitter
Everytime You Turn Around
It's Not Over
Ghost of You
No Surprise
Breakdown
Crashed
Open Up Your Eyes
September
Over You
Life After You
Supernatural
Feels Like Tonight
There and Back Again
You Don't Belong
Home
Daughtry Set List 09 as captured on Twitter
Everytime You Turn Around
It's Not Over
Ghost of You
No Surprise
Breakdown
Crashed
Open Up Your Eyes
September
Over You
Life After You
Supernatural
Feels Like Tonight
There and Back Again
You Don't Belong
Home
Saturday, August 1, 2009
It feels like we're living from paycheck to check
I got free tickets to see Larry the Cable Guy at TPAC this past week, and I took my mom. I was under the impression that it was going to be stand-up, but it was a taping for an actual Christmas special, complete with skits and whatnot. Needless to say, it wasn't as good as I had hoped, but it was free. We ended up leaving early because it was almost 11 and we had to drive back to Clarksville and be up for work the next morning. Billy Currington and Zac Brown Band were there, so that was pretty awesome. Can't complain about free tickets for something.
I had to put 4 new tires on my car this week, so that drained the bank account. It sucks knowing that all I did was work this summer, didn't take go to Chicago like I had wanted to, and I have no money. Really looking forward to the end of August when I get that money from school.
2 more weeks of this God-awful summer class. Never again, is all I can say.
I'm just tired. Tired from work. Tired from school. Tired from life.
I need a break from everything.
I had to put 4 new tires on my car this week, so that drained the bank account. It sucks knowing that all I did was work this summer, didn't take go to Chicago like I had wanted to, and I have no money. Really looking forward to the end of August when I get that money from school.
2 more weeks of this God-awful summer class. Never again, is all I can say.
I'm just tired. Tired from work. Tired from school. Tired from life.
I need a break from everything.
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