Saturday, December 27, 2008


It's becoming apparent that I am far too nice.
I cover people's shifts at work even though I don't want to and had plans.
I do it because when I want a day off, I want to have someone cover for me.
Sometimes it just feels like people are taking advantage.
It's whatever though. Next paycheck should be bangin'
So, the Preds beat the Red Wings last night.
Color me shocked.
On one hand, I am really happy. But there's the other part that wonders why that team can't show up for all the games.
You lose to a team in last place in their conference (Tampa Bay) but yet, knock off the number two team in the conference. Doesn't make sense.
Either way, well played game. And Shea Freakin' Weber is a beast.
Not Drake's beast.
Not crazy Shea girl's beast.
My beast.
And he knows it too.
And that makes me smile.
By the way, being winked and nodded at by Fiddler used to be un-nerving.
But now, it's kinda cool.
We're their girls.
And I love it.
Britney and Kelly are coming over tonight for Wii fun.
It'll be nice not to have to drive to Nashville to hang out.
That drive is getting old fast.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

she's so high

Funny how you can be on such a high and have such a great day, but wake up and just crash the next day.
Yesterday was awesome.
I got all A's for the semester, I had a good day at work, and was staring at a week off (from one job).
This morning I did not want to get out of bed.
No, I didn't want to go to work at 7:30, but that wasn't even it.
I felt like I had lost purpose.
It just seemed like the past couple weeks have been a facade.
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
The fact that all of this seems to stem from a failed attempt at a relationship sickens me.
I hate him now, and am to the point where I'm just angry.
Angry at being strung along, angry at being so carelessly kicked to the curb, angry at being replaceable, angry that I lost a good friend, and angry that I was so naive.
Six years is a long time to live the way I was. When it was all over, I convinced myself that everything would be fine.
Everything is not fine.
It's like trying to change the way you've been living, thinking, and feeling for almost a third of your life.
It doesn't come easy.
And it takes time.
Being incredibly impatient is not helping matters.
I want this to be over now.
I want to be ok.
I want to not care about his new girlfriend.
I want to not be bothered that he doesn't call anymore.
And I want to stop feeling like this.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Less than Shea

I weigh less than Shea Weber.
Numbers aren't important here, but I'm happy.
I have a lot of muscle mass, and unfortunately that weighs more than fat.
Been working on the Wii Fit to get some of the fat off.
It's working pretty well.
I'm so sore though. Definitely am out of shape.
Would love to be under that nasty three digit number that starts with a two.
Goal for that is by the summer.
Definitely attainable.
Just gotta stay motivated.

In other news...winter break is upon us.
Started working at the admissions office last week. Using the time off to make some extra money. I'll need it come spring.
Speaking of spring.....66 days till the AMAZING St. Louis trip.
And a little less than that till a home St. Louis game.
Big HUGE thanks to my favorite person: Jenn
4 rows behind visitors bench.
I really am loved.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Bad idea

So clearly, we didn't think through the driving to and from St. Louis in one night.
It was a bad idea.
Not only did they lose, they lost in the last 10 minutes of the game.
It was heartbreaking.
Although we did get another "that girl" story out of it.
And I got my Blues shirt.
So it wasn't all for naught.
My exam did not go very well. Not absolutely horrible, but not the best.
And we barely made it back last night. Kelly and I were so tired.
After my exam today, I came home and crashed until I had to go to work at 5.
Missed my first Predators home game tonight.
They lost, so I must be a good luck charm (at home).
I'll be back in action on Saturday.
Until then, I have GOT to catch up on some sleep.
I feel like a zombie.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

"Do you want to go to St. Louis? haha"

That was the text I received from Kelly today after practically begging someone to go to St. Louis with me last night at Blackstone.
Britney has stupid animal responsibilities and Kelly and Jenn both had work.
Andrew said he would go, but didn't have the money.
Besides, that would have been quite awkward. Don't think his girlfriend would have went for that idea.
So I gave up on the idea and figured I didn't need to spend the money anyway.
The text today was after Kelly found out that Monday is going to be her day off next week.
So that means: Road trip to St. Louis to see the Preds vs. Blues :)
Paul isn't playing, so no cheating for me.
I'll look for a shirt though. ;)
Funny thing is, I have an exam Tuesday morning at 9.
That ought to be fun. It's geography so who really cares?
This spontaneity is quite amusing. I've never been a very spontaneous person. I am crazy anal about planning anything I do.
I don't know what it is, but I've been feeling like a different person lately. Maybe this whole "not being a teenager anymore" thing is making me act different. Whatever it is, I've actually been enjoying life lately.
And I hope that continues. I haven't been happy like this in awhile.