Thursday, July 23, 2009

A list of thoughts

Just some random musings or bitchy comments for the day.
This seemed like a good enough thing to do while sitting at work with a headache.

Funny how you can not talk to someone, not texts, facebook wall posts or comments, or phone calls and get a lunch invitation out of the blue.
Friendship is a two-way street.
If you are taking adult steps it would be awesome if you could act like an adult.
I am so easily talked into things, it's not even funny.
Working all the time blows.
Working all the time and having no time to do homework for my class blows even more.
Summer classes are not fun if you have stoner professors who are lazy and want you to teach yourself.
I worked all summer and did practically nothing just to turn around and blow almost all of what I have on new tires. So much for karma.
I really need to get out of Clarksville, if only for a few days.
I really hope things work out for Phoenix in October, even though I have no idea how I'll afford it now. I'll work something out.
Why does it seem like everyone in Tennessee took a "How to drive like an asshole" class?
I'm glad I don't have hockey to cloud up my schedule right now.
My Dad told me I needed better hockey tickets, but refused to contribute to the fund to pay for them.
I'm not sure there is anything better than coffee and ESPN at 6am.
Truck drivers must have some awesome CDs and iPod playlists to stand all that driving.
The money that comes with the responsibility in a job is not always worth it. Especially when you're doing everyone else's work while they surf the net and do things for their deadbeat kids.
In 2 months and a handful of days I will be 21, and I feel like there's nothing too exciting about that, which is completely opposite of my thoughts a few months and years ago.

I babbled enough, and the computer screen is making the throbbing in my head worse.
16 minutes left in the work day.
One day, roughly 7 1/2 hours, until I finally get a day off after almost a month without one.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Work, Hockey, Harry Potter, Traffic, and Summer Classes

Guess it's time for a few updates on life. I am currently on day 19 of working 26 days in a row without a day off. Needless to say, I'm pretty exhausted. I finally have a day off next Saturday and I fully intend on doing nothing. I don't want to have plans. I have free time, me time, and I'm going to enjoy it. Reading a book in the pool is a likely scenario. I've been working up at Austin Peay every weekday and then have had Premier every other week, as usual. Last weekend I worked for Ashley, which is why I haven't had a day off in forever. The money will be nice though. That's what this is all about, money.
The hockey schedule came out, so it's time to start thinking about where I can afford to go. I am having to teach myself that hockey isn't everything and that trips aren't always that important. I've got to be more responsible with what I spend my money on and get ready for being out of school and taking care of myself. As for trips, I'm hoping to hear something good regarding Jenry's job situation because I really want to go see Sarah in Arizona. The trip would be around fall break, so I could visit longer, and I'd also get to see the Blues play the Coyotes. I think that would be really fun since I've missed her like crazy! I'll have to get over my fear of flying though, so we'll see. The other given would be our trip to St. Louis. The game falls on a Sunday this year, but it's earlier so me and Jenn talked and decided we could drive home that night. That trip was a lot of fun last year, so I'm looking forward to it. Jenn and I had also talked about a spring break trip. In the 3 years, soon to be 4, that I've been in college I have yet to take a spring break trip. Looking at the schedule, the trip that falls around spring break would be a California trip. Again, I'll have to look at money, but that might be pretty awesome.
Contrary to how I thought I'd feel, I'm pretty happy that I only got a half season. There are 16 games on nights I work, and that just is not doable when it comes to getting off. Unless it's someone I really want to see, I doubt I'll be taking many days off. So, here's to hoping my 23 games are on Saturdays or nights I have off. I've already had offers from several people, some who I don't even converse with much, for tickets if I want to go but don't have tickets. I love how nice people can be. See, this is my good karma for giving that guy a ride to Nashville.
That's a whole other story. Tuesday night I was meeting Jenn at Opry Mills at 7:30 to have dinner and then see the new Harry Potter movie. I got my latte and got on the highway. Around mile marker 16 I hit traffic. Not just a slow moving jam, non-moving traffic. Apparently there had been a wreck at exit 19 and both lanes were blocked. I sat on I-24 for 3 hours. So needless to say, I got out and chatted with my "neighbors." The guy in front of me was headed to Nashville to stay the night before a flight in the morning. His son, who was driving him, had to be up at 4 am for work. He asked me if I could take him the rest of the way, and I did because it was on my way. I was happy to help because he was a really nice guy and it was the right thing to do. So that was a night of excitement, save the fact that I felt horrible for Jenn being stuck in line with crazy Harry Potter freaks alone. But the movie rocked and it was worth it, plus I got a good story out of it. Never a dull moment, I swear.
Anyway, my summer class started this past Monday and so far it sucks. It's boring, long, and I'm pretty sure the professor is a stoner. I'm not worried about passing the class because all of the tests are online and you can retake them as many times as you want. I am worried about being motivated to go, not fall asleep, and not leave early. It's that bad. I'm also a little worried because I feel like I'm not learning anything, and I'm pretty sure that as an Accounting major, Accounting II is a pretty important class. One week down, four to go.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Men are from Mars, Women are from.....

So Brittany, from APSU, not the other one, has been trying to hook me up with her boyfriend's twin brother. She gave him my number and we've been texting for the past month or so. Our schedules haven't meshed at all, so when she's gone down there to see Brandon, I haven't been able to go. And when Randall and Brandon have come up here, I've had work or been busy. Next weekend, they're coming up and I've come to the realization that I just can't; I don't have the time. I told him that today. I think he's upset but understands. I'm sure both he and Brittany will be disappointed, but I can't go through life just trying to make everyone else happy. And this may sound shallow, but I think I can do better. I think I'm ok looking. I'm not the skinniest girl in the world, but when I try, I can be pretty hot. He, on the other hand, was a bit overweight, and from reading his texts, not very educated. I'd like a guy to be able to carry an intelligent conversation about something other than sports, even though I enjoy my sports talk from time to time. Is that too much to ask?
I'm perfectly content with being alone right now. School and work aren't leaving much time for anything besides my friends. And friends come first right now. I'm not the kind of girl who ditches her friends over a guy. If a guy can't accept that, then I see that as a flaw.
The prospect of new relationship also made me realize some things about the last attempt. I'm not completely sure I'm over Scott. He called a few weeks ago; I didn't answer. That made me feel a little empowered, even though I really wanted to talk to him. Having known each other for almost 8 years makes it a little hard to just drop each other like a hat. I miss having Sarah here to talk some sense into me about this whole thing. :P
At the moment there are probably only a couple of guys who could change the way things are. Two are longshots, and the other, no matter what I've been told, is not interested even though now I might be. One of these days I'll figure it out, but until then I guess I'll be working on me, myself, and I.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

CMA Fest

2009 was my 4th CMA Fest. And it was by far the best yet.
I bought a ticket for the nightly concert on Thursday. Me and Kelly went together. After parking up on 7th Ave and taking a nice walk over the bridge to LP Field, we had to waste time before the show started.
When it finally got going, Brooks & Dunn made my life. Not only did they sing "My Maria", they sang my all-time favorite song "Rock My World Little Country Girl." "Cowgirls Don't Cry" with Reba was also epic.
After they finished their set, Reba came out. As expected, she was amazing.....for three songs. After finishing "Strange", she was interrupted to announce bad weather.
We had to evacuate to the concourse because there were severe storms in the area. There is nothing that hurts more than sitting on a concrete floor for almost three hours. Oh yes, a three hour delay. At least me and Kelly came up with a game. We counted 7. Haha! We stuck it out because we had yet to see Brad Paisley or Dierks Bentley. Had they already performed, I may have left. Around 12:30 am, the music got back underway.
Darius Rucker came out and rocked. Hootie!
Then came Dierks, who is HOT. I mean really hot. He's even better live.
Brad Paisley came next. He is an entertainer, and it's awesome. He can do some amazing things with a guitar. He can do a song that will have you laughing, and then touch your heart with a song like "Then." He and Dierks did "Alcohol" together. I LOVE that song.
Then came the bad news that Rascal Flatts had left early. Due to the storm delay and them having a show in Tulsa the next day, they had to hit the road. A lot of people were upset, but I can honestly say I didn't care much. I hate their new song and have seen them enough to know what to expect. It was a night full of amazing music and some awesome stories came out of it. Getting home at 4am was awesome too. lol

The best part of the night was the guy siting next to Kelly. He ended up having an extra ticket to Sunday's show....which he gave to me. I got a FREE ticket to see Kenny Chesney. Oh yea! Good things happen to good people I guess.

Now for Sunday, I had the same walk as Thursday, but was going it alone. I sat next to the same nice people and ended up chatting with the guy's granddaughter the whole time.
Things kicked off with Joan and Roxy from Army Wives introducing Jack Ingram. The only song I like by him is "Love You", which he sang, and it was awesome.
There were too many acts that I can't keep the order straight, but I think Montgomery Gentry came next. I'm pretty sure Troy had on eyeliner, which was not cute. He used to be hot, but now, not so much. Their set was good. "Gone" was awesome and really got the crowd going.
Miranda Lambert was next. Me and the girl next to me were jamming out. I absolutely love her. She's got the whole angry girl music thing down, and it rocks. Wish she had sang "More Like Her" though, but oh well.
Oh! Heidi Newfield did an acoustic performance which was pretty good. I like the harder version of "Johnny and June" but it was still good.
John Rich did a few songs. Now, I'm not a huge fan of his, but "Save a Horse Ride a Cowboy" always gets a crowd going. He also brought out Cowboy Troy, whom I LOVE.
Let's see...Oh! Taylor Swift was next. And I swear, I've never heard so many screaming kids. It was really cute to see them get all excited. She was a lot better this time than when I saw her opening for Rascal Flatts in the fall. She did an AMAZING arrangement with "You're Not Sorry", which I already loved. She mixed it up with "What Goes Around" by Justin Timberlake. I don't think a lot of the people there liked it, but I was very impressed.
The special guest for the night was Sugarland. Talk about awesome. Jennifer Nettles is amazing. When she sang "Stay" it got me teared up, as usual. "Settlin' " live is even better than on the album. I was really glad I finally got to see them live though because I've wanted to for awhile now.
Now, the moment I had waited all night for had arrived. Kenny Chesney That man is a true entertainer. "Beer In Mexico," "Summertime," "Went Out Last Night." Best opening three songs of a set EVER. I was rockin' and had hardly no voice left. He played 7 or 8 songs I think. He just wanted to play and you could tell because he kept saying "We just wanna hang out with y'all." And I had no problem with that at all. I think his tractor is mucho sexy!
Once again, I thanked the guy that had given me the ticket. He absolutely made my life. It's nice to know that there are still really decent people out there. I hope he, his wife, and their granddaughter enjoyed the rest of their trip. I got home Sunday night around 2am. Needless to say, it was a weekend of great music with some great people, plus we had some fun up in Clarksville in the pool, watching hockey, eating amazing beer dip, getting sunburnt,a dn seeing Star Trek again. I've got some pretty good friends. And I'm pretty glad Ciara had to take a driving class and got to come hang out for the weekend.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Will real women and men please stand up? No more children please

Another girl from work is leaving. There are two schedulers on each shift. The past three that have left have been on mine: Ciara, Emily, and now Brittany. It's got me wondering if it's me. Am I the problem? Am I such a bitch that people don't want to work with me? There's trouble with friends now too. Am I such a bitch that people don't want to be around me? I have some close friends, but maybe they got past whatever bad personality trait it is I have. Is it so wrong to confront your problems head on? Yes, sometimes it's easier to let things go, but I feel like sometimes things need to be said. Is it wrong that I'd rather say them than pretend everything is ok? Ignorance and avoidance get us nowhere. Be up front with people and say what you mean. Don't be a wuss and take the easy way out. Problems multiply over time, and then situations become unbearable. If it comes down and I only have five or six good friends then so be it. At least I know I'll be able to say whatever I feel needs to be said without getting jumped on for doing so. If you can't handle the truth, don't jump on me for having the balls to say what I think.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget

I'm a firm believer that best friends talk about everything. A best friend is someone you can talk about the tough stuff with and have fun with at the same time. I've had a few best friends, but the characteristics of being one has changed throughout the years. As you get older, you need different things in a friendship. I have found some really good friends in the past few years, and lost some as well. It comes with the whole growing up thing.
Even though it's often hard for people to express what they're really feeling or to talk about the hard things in life, when you find a person who makes it easier, that person is worthy of being kept around.
I hate even thinking about it, but in three weeks Sarah's husband will be out of the military and they will be taking a new step in life. Nothing is official yet, but they'll likely being moving away. Two and a half years ago, I wouldn't have thought that I'd make such a good friend. Apparently laughing at someone's stupidity in Biology lab is what starts an awesome friendship. Since the spring of 2007, we've been through a lot. Her husband's deployment, my Dad's cancer, stupid education classes, and lots and lots of hockey. She has become someone I can talk to about anything. She's helped through so much of the drama I've had go on with Scott. She's been a level head and a voice of reason in my often clouded mind.
Aside from all the mushy stuff, we've had so much fun together. From Predators games, poop books, and trips to Cici's to making fun of Delilah, Unforgivable, and Rick Rolls.
Sarah, you've been like a less bitchy sister to me. I'd trade Kaily for you anyday. :P I'm so happy for you and Jenry and hope that you're happy wherever you guys end up.
And if that happens to be Nashville, well I'd be pretty ok with that. And if it's across the country, I'll find a way to visit.
Can't wait till Atlanta this weekend.
Love you best friend :)

Friday, May 22, 2009

Hockey?

1) What's (Who's?) your favorite team? Nashville Predators

2) What's your least favorite team? Columbus Blue Jackets, Pittsburgh Penguins, Vancouver Canucks

3) Who's your favorite player? Shea Weber, Paul Kariya

4) Who's your least favorite player? Thomas Holmstrom and Johan Franzen

5) Favorite American team? umm The Preds?

6) Favorite Canadian team? Calgary Flames

7) Favorite International team? Canada :)

8) Who's your favorite goalie? Cam Ward and JS Giguere

9) Least favorite goalie? Roberto Luongo

10) Favorite fighter? David Backes ;)

11) Least favorite fighter? Darcy Hordichuk (Darshy Hordisuck)

12) Favorite jersey/uniform/outfit/sweater? St. Louis's third jersey, Carolina's third jersey, Nashville's away

13) Least favorite jersey/uniform/outfit/sweater? Penguins third jersey

14) Do you like home, away, or "third" jerseys best? So far, the away. Until Nashville's third gets released. If it looks like the mock ups I've seen, that may become my new fave

15) Who do you want to win the Cup? Carolina

17) Which player would you most like to sit and have coffee with? Patrick Marleau

18) What about a beer? Shea Weber ;)

19) How about just watch the game with? Ryan Getzlaf

20) Have an in-depth hockey conversation with? Paul Kariya

21) Do you collect hockey cards, memorabilia, etc? I collect memorabilia: pucks, pictures, giveaways, etc.

22) If so, what's your favorite card? No cards, but I do love my stick autographed by the 07-08 team. And my Shea Weber picture that Mike printed out for me and I had signed. :)

23) Which is worth the most, and what's it worth? My stick and autographed pucks may be worth a little. The jerseys autographed by Weber and Kariya may be worth a little more.

24) Do you live by any hockey players? No. I live an hour away from hockey. Doubt any of them commute that far. haha

26) Do you play hockey? I played roller hockey back in the day.

27) What do you wear to hockey games? Jeans and a jersey. Or if the jerseys have been deemed bad luck, some other Preds paraphernalia. Or if it's the end of the season and I'm doing reverse mojo, a Blues shirt. :P

28) Do you have any "watching hockey rituals" or anything anyone might consider weird? umm I used to have to stand on the ledge behind my seat during the whole 3rd, but I quit doing that. People might consider some of the stuff I yell weird, but me, Sarah, and Ciara always though it was funny. lol

29) What's your favorite hockey memory (as a fan?)
2007 playoffs vs. San Jose when Dumont scored shorthanded
2008 playoffs vs Detroit when Legwand came back on a bad foot and scored
2009 regular season vs Detroit when we WHOOPED Detroit 8-0
February 21, 2009 when me, Jenn, Britney, and Kelly sat behind the Predators bench in St. Louis and Weber scored the lone goal of the game to win in overtime

30) What's your favorite hockey commercial? Verizon--"Best baby in the world!"

31) Who's the nicest player you've met? Brooks Laich, Paul Kariya, Pekka Rinne, Shea Weber, Jarome Iginla. Hell most of them have been decent.

32) Rudest/meanest/most annoying, etc? Boyd Gordon was kinda rude. Ovechkin is a douche.

33) Who's the best looking (AKA 'off ice favourite') Paul or Shea Don't judge :P

34) Other off-handed/off-ice comments? The commentating is half the fun."Weber gets it in deep." HAHA

35) Why do you really like hockey? Its fast-paced, excitement when the goal horn goes off, hard hitting, non-stop action. The feeling I get sitting in my seat, waiting for MY team to take the ice. Telling the other team they suck. Telling the other goaltender he sucks. The hour long drive I make to have that experience. The heart and soul of every single player on that ice. Watching them give everything they've got to get a little piece of rubber past the goaltender. Fighting for them and their teammates honor. The gratitude they feel towards me, the fan. Feeling like my being there makes a difference. Knowing that my sadness at the season being over doesn't even match the feelings they have.But more than anything, the fact that it's unlike any sport on earth. Nothing is as physically and emotionally demanding as hockey.