Sometimes you're the windshield

So I've fallen off the wagon for this 30 day meme, but I'll get back on eventually. I have stuff on my mind today.

I'm lonely. I have friends, and I live with family. I'm not alone, but I am lonely. It's hard to go through the day surrounded by people but constantly feel like they don't really care. People may ask, but these days it doesn't seem like they really care.

I have no one here who will just sit with me. Some days all I need is a hug and someone to tell me things are going to be okay. I'm not good at telling people what my problems are, but that doesn't mean they don't bother me. I miss having someone know that something was wrong and be able to call me on it. I miss knowing that someone cares enough to make me talk about things. I'm a guarded person, but those people who can push through and knock down my walls truly are important.

It seems more and more like people ask what's wrong just so they can make it about them. At this point, it's almost easier to stay quiet and pretend everything is okay. I miss being surrounded by people who truly know me, and I'm lonely without them.